My First Semester Here

This semester is my first at Oxnard College, well, college in general. Personally my biggest challenge is getting up to go to school. Not having a California drivers license gets in the way most of the time but the purchase of a new bike shortened my trip by more than half, which means I can wake up even later. The workload is honestly not hard, most of the homework is mapped out for me and there is not much class work in general. I have learned that my light schedule was a complete mistake. There are often times I find myself with nothing to do. The one thing that I would gladly tell anyone is that online classes are a big mistake for people like me who are hardly home. In the end the pay-off is worth all the work. The time spent slaving to finish assignments and study for tests strengthens your knowledge  and betters your life.  To stay motivated I remember that it's all worth it in the end and even though I will still have another college to go to after I get out of here I need to do this for me.

Rainy Ride

After picking up my game from a friend at the college it started raining and i was left with only my bike. In a muddy mood i put on My Chemical Romance’s- Early Sunsets Over Monroeville , which led to the most epic bike ride home. The rain seemed to be in sync with the music as both grew in intensity. Unable to help myself i gained speed  and soon realized is was going near the speed of the cars to my side. It seemed destined that this was meant to be as the streetlights changed at my will. Caught in the mood of the song I felt all of the emotion Gerard Way put into his lyrics. Nothing could stop me by the time the song ended i was coverd in water and at home. Now that i am home there was nothing in the world better than a HOT shower and tumblr. to make my day.  

My Family: Ghetto Status....

                Divorce is hard enough for a married couple but when it comes down to it who is really hurt? The kids are, my brother and I were fought over and the fighting still continues over my brother who is almost 18 but they still haven't realized that he can think for himself and decide to argue constantly over who gets the custody. From the time you learn to speak your parents tell you to never lie, but it seems like my parents would say anything to get what they want. It seemed like I never knew what I wanted either... because I jumped between homes and my attitude towards a certain parent was completely random to me. In my life it was never who had more money or who was the "cooler parent" it was where I felt like I was at home. around sophomore year my dad my brother and my father's fiancée went on a trip to Mexico... big mistake. there was a confrontation between me and my dad that ended up getting physical, let's just say that after that I did not speak to him for 2 years... I couldn't even look at him. eventually though I talked to him, believe me it was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, and now I  think I have a successful relationship with my father. On the other hand my Mom, well simply put she's a typical Asian parent who wants me to be the "Perfect Asian Son'' which means not the person I am now. Being a single parent its hard though... dealing with two sons who never stop fighting and working full time to come to a home that hardly is one. My mom's side of the family is from the Philippines... and not just the Philippines the ghetto Philippines. That side of the family that are still there aren't the luckiest people out there but being that I've gone to visit twice already they seem to be happy. It's amazing though... in the US my family that I know of only consists of at most 20 relatives mainly centered in Oxnard but there in that one town in the Philippines there are waves of relatives, it seems like they just never stop popping out babies and more and more cousins and sometimes uncles and aunts are born. My Brother is probably the luckiest person in my family however. I don't know if it's the jealous brother in me but it seems like he gets everything that he wants, and has no responsibility whatsoever.  

Blog Entry #1

            As a child I grew up in two homes, torn between parents with expectations of a biased love. There is not much to say about my child hood, except for repressed memories and horrible holidays filled with disappointment and screaming. Not all of my youth was spent as a so called "nightmare" but it was full of the experiences that shaped the very being who is typing this very blog. After a sudden change to a school that is filled with unknown faces I was left to find friends with anyone who will give me a moment their lives and hope to not receive hostility in any form. In Junior High some things are much more crucial like the need to interact with others and even though it's only been seven or so years some people never really developed the people skills needed to interact with others. I on the other hand was blessed with the amazing talent of being a nerd and being able to pick out the other nerds so I was never alone for too long.


           Not too long ago my best friend called me asking for the numbers of our closest friends. At that moment I realized who were going to be the friends for the rest of my life and am still in shock thinking about the 30 some friends i lost touch with. nowadays I fill my life with my 3 loves: my girlfriend, my guitars, and my music. You may ask why I say music and still write the word guitars... well in my mind they are two completely different things because my music is my way of getting away from the world: my escape from reality; while on the other hand my guitar is my way of expressing myself. I may have mentioned that I am a nerd....well it was true I still am and I'm sure I will be one in the future, no matter how old I grow and how far my music can get from nerdy it will never change. As tech savvy as i am, i tend to follow internet trends in the sense of social networking sites. I am currently obsessed with updating my status and posting nonsense pictures to entertain others I have never and will never meet.

           In my future I see myself with the same girl that I am currently with maybe married(maybe.) By then I will own my own home, possibly a home recording studio, which I am in progress of achieving. By then maybe I will become "Tumblr famous" as the entire Tumblr world which is my preference for blogging. Or It could be possible that I become a rising star in the music industry: tour the world, sell my music and get paid to do what inspires me. But in reality there are many things that I would want to happen, but the for sure things will be my education which I will always continue to further and my 3 loves: my girlfriend, my guitars, and my music.