As a child I grew up in two homes, torn between parents with expectations of a biased love. There is not much to say about my child hood, except for repressed memories and horrible holidays filled with disappointment and screaming. Not all of my youth was spent as a so called "nightmare" but it was full of the experiences that shaped the very being who is typing this very blog. After a sudden change to a school that is filled with unknown faces I was left to find friends with anyone who will give me a moment their lives and hope to not receive hostility in any form. In Junior High some things are much more crucial like the need to interact with others and even though it's only been seven or so years some people never really developed the people skills needed to interact with others. I on the other hand was blessed with the amazing talent of being a nerd and being able to pick out the other nerds so I was never alone for too long.
Not too long ago my best friend called me asking for the numbers of our closest friends. At that moment I realized who were going to be the friends for the rest of my life and am still in shock thinking about the 30 some friends i lost touch with. nowadays I fill my life with my 3 loves: my girlfriend, my guitars, and my music. You may ask why I say music and still write the word guitars... well in my mind they are two completely different things because my music is my way of getting away from the world: my escape from reality; while on the other hand my guitar is my way of expressing myself. I may have mentioned that I am a nerd....well it was true I still am and I'm sure I will be one in the future, no matter how old I grow and how far my music can get from nerdy it will never change. As tech savvy as i am, i tend to follow internet trends in the sense of social networking sites. I am currently obsessed with updating my status and posting nonsense pictures to entertain others I have never and will never meet.
In my future I see myself with the same girl that I am currently with maybe married(maybe.) By then I will own my own home, possibly a home recording studio, which I am in progress of achieving. By then maybe I will become "Tumblr famous" as the entire Tumblr world which is my preference for blogging. Or It could be possible that I become a rising star in the music industry: tour the world, sell my music and get paid to do what inspires me. But in reality there are many things that I would want to happen, but the for sure things will be my education which I will always continue to further and my 3 loves: my girlfriend, my guitars, and my music.
Thanks for this post, Mark! I hear Tumblr is really great. I'll have to check it out.
ReplyDeleteGlad you are in this class. I have a feeling you have a lot to say.
Hey Mark how are you doing. Just read your blog. I like the line with your three loves. Really powerful and you explain it well.
ReplyDeleteWe remember our trauma's more then the happy times I believe. I can concure with the torn two houses. If you have 3 loves you have the world!
ReplyDeleteAt 24, I've come to realize that as corny as it sounds, it's quality not quantity that matters when it comes to friends. I totally feel you on the music thing too. Although I'm just a fan of music and not a musician, I look to music as a way to escape.
ReplyDeleteHey Martin,
ReplyDeleteI just read your post, you seem like a strong man that overcomed all the struggles you had and your heading in a good direction.
Wow! You seem to have overcome a lot of obsticles, which show that you are very determined. Keep it up!
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